A Mother's Worst Nightmare

My heart is broken by eyes have run dry.....


Two weeks ago I turned on the TV to hear a little girl, 6 year old Sierra Newbold had been missing, then found a little while later by a canal. I prayed she had just wondered off and fell in but they didn't say either way. It was soooo close to my home.. Less than a mile, two streets away. I was terrified. I hugged my little 6 year old Sadie a little more that day. I was glued to the tv all day for more info. I talked to a lady in my ward who was somehow related say the families house ha been broken into a few times and they had a security camera and it showed someone leave the house with something. I didn't want to believe it.. I was in denial. Later on the news they showed her sweet little face. I went Visiting Teaching that night to find out it was one of our neighbor's best friends little sister. Don did work on her truck a couple years back. I knew Aubrey, she was always at the Howell's after school and she was always so cute when we would go to Sizzler, she works there. The later announce that Sierra had been assaulted and murdered.

I locked my doors and didn't sleep well that night as soon as I woke up in the morning I checked all the beds in the house for my kids, to my relief they were there. 10 days went on. I checked Twitter because I follow the West Jordan Police, every day the tweet was the same. "no new developments in the Sierra Newbold case" I was really getting frustrated. There is a child killer loose.

Finally after 2 weeks they announced at the noon news the police had an news conference scheduled at 3pm about the case. I didn't go anywhere waiting for 3pm to come along. They had found the monster that had done this evil act. I cried all through the news conference. Honestly there have been so many people praying for this to happen and hearing how it all went down it was definitely "divine intervention", just like the officer said. It is amazing to me!

Well, this has been so difficult for me. To have a child the same age. It pulls at the heart strings. My hear toes out to the Newbold family. My thoughts and prayers are for you. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet angel.

My kids and I have talked a lot about this. Esp Sadie, she knows about it, she asks about her. I was so happy to tell her they had caught the man who hurt the little girl. I remember as a kid there was a little girl that was kidnapped and killed. Sadie will never forget this, she will always have a strange connection to it. What a cruel world we live in..

Last night I kissed my kids good night and when I woke up... I still checked their beds...